Live life like tomorrow's the end

When you were young
And your heart was an open book
You used to say, "Live and let live"
You know you did, you know you did, you know you did

But if this ever changin' world
In which we live in
Makes you give in and cry
Say, "Live and let die, live and let die"

This is the opening verse of the song live and let die, so true right?

Just a few days ago, my father allowed me go for SL and Church camp,
one fine day yesterday, he changed his mine and only allowed me to go
for one, he gave me false hopes for 5 days. And tomorrow im going to talk
things over with him, wish me luck. If it fails,
i am only going to go for SL camp.If at most i cant go church camp i will
still go for it, just that i will not stay overnight ba. But still, i dun
think its fair. So imma fight for my rights. But i have faith that i will
succeed, i will be praying all night long for it ba. Then God bless me
with courage and words to speak tomorrow.

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Life is kinda full of ups and downs, yea im an optimist, but still, stuff
happens sometimes, and the usual you, when u would say live and let live,
suddenly dun give a damn anymore, and instead u say, i hate living.
Yea, im in pessimistic mode now, but i got to pick myself up, cause i still
have a chance tomorrow. Guan cai ban hai mei guan, ren hai mei si, literally meaning
if the lid of the coffin isnt closed, the person isnt dead, This proverb was used in
old times when medical technology wasnt so advanced, so they didnt know if a person
was dead or alive until his coffin lid is closed, then he is 'dead'.
ok enough with my theory haha.

Volleyball's tiring, i wanna be a main spiker, im stuck being a center... last training,
coach finally gave everyone, including me, the chance to spike high balls again, and i absolutely
loved the feeling of it, i jumped my highest and hit straight down, awesome feeling, i hope
next training mite be the same, but fat chance, since the coach let us spike high balls cause
there werent enough ppl in training that day, only 14 ppl turned up...

Church: I miss my CG, so long never see them, i hope i can see u all again soon!

Jesusfreak at 9:17 AM

Friday, November 12, 2010

We lost today, but i will not let this lost go vain, i will just train harder, have more spirit and look upward, if we lost today, it means i am not good enough, if i am not good enough, then why do i dream about going to YOG 2014 but not doing anything for it? After all actions speak much louder than words, if i can put on my FB that i want to go YOG 2014, i jolly well better work hard for it, wont be nice if i suddenly say, aiya sian la, no motivation then give up. Its time to work hard! henceforth even at night i will do some physical before i go to bed. Then before dinnertime, and in the morning, 30 mins each, shall construct a programme for myself, hard work pays off after all, and i can also help my team in future to win. At least its better than just staring at com with no purpose which is what i am doing ba, i shud instead get down and do some pushups to train my triceps so i can spike harder. Or do some crunches so i can jump higher and spike harder too. Then it wont be so much of a pipe dream anymore. Sorry team, today i did not play to my best, kept getting blocked. I promise i will work harder than ever, dun slack during training liao, must have the spirit to continue on despite being tired. The spirit to train harder as you get more tired, only with this spirit can i improve and have a chance in hell to go to YOG 2014. But saying is only one part, motivation another step, but the big leap is actually doing what i say. off to do my exercises!

Jesusfreak at 9:31 AM

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Spent my whole day at home, largely spending most of my time blowing senseless notes on my harmonica. I wanna learn more rock and roll songs on it! Went to church yesterday and had an awesome CG dinner! we ate at some random japanese restaurant in City square mall or something like that at farrer park mrt station. And i winded up spending almost $15 on sushis, drinks and the main dish T.T. But it was a good dinner, chatted alot and was just really very fun luh, got about 10 people there i think. I hope next time got more people ^^. And so after going to church, which is a place i somehow can feel completely comfortable there, maybe because of atmosphere and ambience but maybe its because its the temple of God also ba. I feel very relaxed and at ease there, at home i think i am quite easily irritable cause of my sian-ess. And if anything 'bad' happens i tend to think vulgarities in my mind scolding that object/person. I am trying to reduce that... can control my emotions better like last time... backslided so much since i never read the bible... I dunno why, i just cant bring myself to do it. Maybe i really need to do it to get that revival which i greatly need in my spiritual life, and not go back to my old self. Thankfully my church camp is coming!!! the uplift that i sorely need is coming! haiz... why is life still so stressful despite it being the hols? i just cant sit back and relax, i am always tensed up, even when i am sian because i am always constantly looking for something to do, if not i feel i am wasting my time away only. Thats why i like church so much, maybe some day i will just go there just to sit there and relax listen music or read the bible there, it is convenient, only a station on the circle line away... Maybe i'll go tomorrow after my basketball match, which i dun think i will be playing much in anyway. just go rest and relax before my vb training starts at 4(haiz). Bye! must sleep early for tomorrow match!

Jesusfreak at 9:04 AM

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Sian i so long never read the bible, my whole lifestyle starts to go downhill again, i have suddenly cared less, my way of speaking is more vulgar and haughty too.... haiz i should start reading the bible again, reminds me of how i should actually behave ba. But somehow i just cant pick it up, like even though i have been sian-ed the whole day i still did not want to pick up my bible for some unknown reason. I know the only way to stop this is just to break through my mentality and force myself to pick it up and read it, creating a good cycle. Talking about cycle i hope our class outing for going to pasir ris will not clash with my training dates if not i will be so pissed since it has prevented me from going to 2 outings liao... Now kind of bored at home, no outing or anything lei... lazy to call friends go also, i just like wanna stone at home only. Maybe i call friends go zheng cong house soon ba... better reply my sms hor... always never reply de then idk if u going or not ma. Spent most of my time playing the harmonica and tabbing out the notes by ear for christian songs nowadays, i just need a good voice recorder, then i will record my playing and then post it on youtube for fun, meanwhile i shall just stone and tab out more songs until i can find a plan and balance and outings to fill up the rest of this boring holiday yet ....

Jesusfreak at 9:01 AM

Monday, November 1, 2010

Bought a new harmonica at $40 today! Fantastic sound, blow a little bit the sound smooth and sweet, i also influence pei xuan to get one too! Got a wound above my eye yesterday after a guy elbowed me accidentally, my mum had to make a din out of it, like i lost a limb zZz... Got many 'class outings' coming up soon! still got the pasir ris one, tomorrow go to vivo city play water, but i got vb match at 2, if they had it in the morning it would have been a perfect day! Hope that we win quickly tomorrow! jyjy to my teammates, which are mostly ppl from C boys, which is also good too! familiar faces :). I shall play some tunes before the match for idk-what-but-just-for-fun ba! Wait still got Xh's bowling outing! got 3 coming up, until i can think of planning one more ba! Today quite slack though, only went out buy harmonica... spent the rest of that day holding that silvery gem in my hands... I hope i can get my skill level up to measure to the price of the harmonica though ^^ So i wont sound so irritating to ppl who dun want hear it hahaha i guess i am annoying much anyways. Wait still got class chalet, so there is a total of 4 class outings coming up? So awesome sia, tomorrow shall rack my brains to think of one more to add to it! I also still have several photos of 204 in several instances and events that i have yet to upload too! and still got video de... only 1 though but i mite not upload it due to some reasons also. Too bad i ran out of rowan atkinson stand up comedy videos to watch, if not i will still have something to do ba! I have about 20 tunes which i remembered to play on the harmonica, and im adding about 2 everyday! mostly olden country songs that was famous in our generation's grandparent's generation though. Bye!! wish me luck

Jesusfreak at 8:47 AM