Sunday, November 7, 2010

Spent my whole day at home, largely spending most of my time blowing senseless notes on my harmonica. I wanna learn more rock and roll songs on it! Went to church yesterday and had an awesome CG dinner! we ate at some random japanese restaurant in City square mall or something like that at farrer park mrt station. And i winded up spending almost $15 on sushis, drinks and the main dish T.T. But it was a good dinner, chatted alot and was just really very fun luh, got about 10 people there i think. I hope next time got more people ^^. And so after going to church, which is a place i somehow can feel completely comfortable there, maybe because of atmosphere and ambience but maybe its because its the temple of God also ba. I feel very relaxed and at ease there, at home i think i am quite easily irritable cause of my sian-ess. And if anything 'bad' happens i tend to think vulgarities in my mind scolding that object/person. I am trying to reduce that... can control my emotions better like last time... backslided so much since i never read the bible... I dunno why, i just cant bring myself to do it. Maybe i really need to do it to get that revival which i greatly need in my spiritual life, and not go back to my old self. Thankfully my church camp is coming!!! the uplift that i sorely need is coming! haiz... why is life still so stressful despite it being the hols? i just cant sit back and relax, i am always tensed up, even when i am sian because i am always constantly looking for something to do, if not i feel i am wasting my time away only. Thats why i like church so much, maybe some day i will just go there just to sit there and relax listen music or read the bible there, it is convenient, only a station on the circle line away... Maybe i'll go tomorrow after my basketball match, which i dun think i will be playing much in anyway. just go rest and relax before my vb training starts at 4(haiz). Bye! must sleep early for tomorrow match!