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Monday, May 30, 2011
Last Days Of May.
28th May 2011: AC Meeting :D
Went to the meeting feeling a little bit down and drained of energy, probably because of the past few days activity. Initially was very quiet and did not want to participate, but when it came to the cheers part, i decided to perk up a little. And yea haha i got high when we sang the as we sang the Friendship walk cheer. I could also remember other cheers like mm mm goes the little green frog and also by the light of the silvery moon, haha really fun cheers which i look forward to in the camp itself. So overall a bleak day turned into quite a fun day too. Near the end of the meeting Mr Chew gave us a mission to fill a box with dead leaves and then bring it to the highest point in XMS in 10 mins. So me and Jun Ji ran and tracked him down at the storey above the Bio lab. Haha then we called the others up. Then we went to the Xinfony terrace there and sand the school song out loud. There was a snail in the box of leaves too! Good memories like these really do last. I hope that i can be my high self for all the remaining facil trainings so that i can have fun too.
Then afterwards i took bus 88 to Pasir Ris interchange and then took the MRT to Expo. Never been there for about 2 years + i think. Went there at around 6.15 to wait for the Go-4th Conference to start. Meanwhile i took some time to explore the missionary booths, and i was filled with new hope and inspiration and passion for the future.
29th May 2011:
Felt like a lazy day to me. Then went with Revo to play basketball at Sengkang CC again from about 12-5. I feel like changing my hairstyle to something like Chessneth's one though. Got cheated at NTUC for a 1.5L of mineral water at $1.35.. I think it was Iceberg water. Haha i thought it looked like the cheapest, but turned out otherwise.
30th May 2011: A solemn lazy day, probably a rest day. In the morning from 11-2 Went out with Jia Xiang with the intention to climb, only to find out that Yishun Safra was closed for maintenance on Monday while Farrer Park's were open only at 5. I missed the chance to climb a high wall T.T. Then went back and rested. Over the time did some self reflection and quiet time too. Filled with new hopes, dreams, inspiration and passion for a better future. And my father allowed me to go AC camp and June CAmp :D
28th May 2011: AC Meeting :D
Went to the meeting feeling a little bit down and drained of energy, probably because of the past few days activity. Initially was very quiet and did not want to participate, but when it came to the cheers part, i decided to perk up a little. And yea haha i got high when we sang the as we sang the Friendship walk cheer. I could also remember other cheers like mm mm goes the little green frog and also by the light of the silvery moon, haha really fun cheers which i look forward to in the camp itself. So overall a bleak day turned into quite a fun day too. Near the end of the meeting Mr Chew gave us a mission to fill a box with dead leaves and then bring it to the highest point in XMS in 10 mins. So me and Jun Ji ran and tracked him down at the storey above the Bio lab. Haha then we called the others up. Then we went to the Xinfony terrace there and sand the school song out loud. There was a snail in the box of leaves too! Good memories like these really do last. I hope that i can be my high self for all the remaining facil trainings so that i can have fun too.
Then afterwards i took bus 88 to Pasir Ris interchange and then took the MRT to Expo. Never been there for about 2 years + i think. Went there at around 6.15 to wait for the Go-4th Conference to start. Meanwhile i took some time to explore the missionary booths, and i was filled with new hope and inspiration and passion for the future.
29th May 2011:
Felt like a lazy day to me. Then went with Revo to play basketball at Sengkang CC again from about 12-5. I feel like changing my hairstyle to something like Chessneth's one though. Got cheated at NTUC for a 1.5L of mineral water at $1.35.. I think it was Iceberg water. Haha i thought it looked like the cheapest, but turned out otherwise.
30th May 2011: A solemn lazy day, probably a rest day. In the morning from 11-2 Went out with Jia Xiang with the intention to climb, only to find out that Yishun Safra was closed for maintenance on Monday while Farrer Park's were open only at 5. I missed the chance to climb a high wall T.T. Then went back and rested. Over the time did some self reflection and quiet time too. Filled with new hopes, dreams, inspiration and passion for a better future. And my father allowed me to go AC camp and June CAmp :D
Jesusfreak at 10:06 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2011
//25th May: Went to eat Shabu Shi steamboat with my mum, my bro and his girlfriend at this restaurant in Nex. Very nice, but i didn't stuff myself as usual. So i had a good mix of sushi, tang hoon, beef and fish. The fish there was really tender. However the sushi was not really nice though, but still quite tasty ba. The tang hoon was the best of all. Overall, i think that it was not value for money though, but well, at least we tried it. I was fascinated by the moving belt of plates with food on them for awhile, then i realised they worked on a magnet belt
//26th May: 15 years of my life has just gone by in a flash.
I face these face a mixed feelings of hope and regret.
All with the thought of changing myself to be a better person for tomorrow.
And i have come up with my personal list of goals.
I will follow it, and plan out of my life well.
Many areas of my life are ailing, and i need to reboost my christian life too.
To bring hope into a lost world.
To bring good news to a disillusioned generation.
To make an impact to a generation that needs a shining guiding light.
I will post up my goals some other time, haha its a whole long list.
But generally i want to achieve a stable christian life.
Thank you to all my friends who helped me to celebrate my birthday, esp clique. Thank you all for buying the cake and the numerous presents that can bring back various memories. *winks* at vincent. It was really memorable, and i would certainly keep the presents cards, and the memories really well. Thank you for the cake too, although it was only a mouthful it was really delicious, like super delicious haha. No words can really describe the taste really.
Thank you.
Then slacked with clique in canteen for awhile, me and lionel went to hg mall first, we tried bouldering on the playground for awhile, it was quite fun to really see that routes can be found nearly everywhere, literally. Then the rest slowly came and we had a chat before i went home with my dad.
My dad and i went to buy my cake at galicier first, it was a fruit cake that is quite big haha, then we went to eat dinner of steamboat with my brother downstairs. Thanks everyone for all the cards and stuff ^^.
27th May 2011: PTM2
PTM2. The day of it. The event that im the IC for, i really wanted to make it a really good job as Sharon is my exco tag, and i dun want to dissapoint her as she is an awesome senior, as well as all the teachers in charge. So yea, started out by making attendance list, action plan, as well as jobscopes and printing them out for all the area ICs. Then Sharon and me discussed some things and yea, i was confident of doing a good job.
Excused from volleyball at 4pm, then went down and changed up, then Mr Bay briefed me for awhile. At 4.20, conducted briefing for all the SLs and SLTs, then dispatched them to put their bags in SLR and then to help out putting up the signs in the hall.
Unfortunately, i did not foresee that the tags needed to be set up by us beforehand, so there was rush and confusion coming up to 5.30, and i could not stick to the plan immediately. After a very rushed period of collecting food and running up and down, we finished putting up all the signs at 5.30 exactly, then sent most of the SLTs and SLs down to get their dinner first, while stationing some SLs to get the early parents to wait first as the teachers have not gathered in the hall yet. Most SLTs, SLS finished eating at 6.00, so i officially started duty promptly, with all the SLs and SLTs set in place, at first the SLTs were feeling awkward, so yea we tried to motivate them and it was successful. Overall throughout the whole event, i was running up and down asking if there was any problems, and if i could help in anyway, and making small convos, it was really fun but tiring though. I ate my dinner at around 6.45, after things have stabilised down a little bit. Through this i have gotten closer to some people too ^^. Overall the event was a great success i think, or i hope so since Mr Chew said so in his debrief. At 9.10, we ended PTM2 duties and starting packing the tables and chairs into exam formation Near the end, me and eugene decide to have fun by playing Ghost anyway. HAHA so we lay in wait at the corridor lying down, as if dead. When the first front row came and saw us they screamed, and so we also screamed, haha very fun, like super awesome la!! Sorry if i scared anyone in the process, but we mean no harm but fun ba ^^. Officially ended at around 10pm, then Me and Sharon talked on the way back ^^.
Then met my mum at nex to eat KFC, then we went back home, thanks MUM! also for the choco cone, was very tired and fell asleep immediately..
//26th May: 15 years of my life has just gone by in a flash.
I face these face a mixed feelings of hope and regret.
All with the thought of changing myself to be a better person for tomorrow.
And i have come up with my personal list of goals.
I will follow it, and plan out of my life well.
Many areas of my life are ailing, and i need to reboost my christian life too.
To bring hope into a lost world.
To bring good news to a disillusioned generation.
To make an impact to a generation that needs a shining guiding light.
I will post up my goals some other time, haha its a whole long list.
But generally i want to achieve a stable christian life.
Thank you to all my friends who helped me to celebrate my birthday, esp clique. Thank you all for buying the cake and the numerous presents that can bring back various memories. *winks* at vincent. It was really memorable, and i would certainly keep the presents cards, and the memories really well. Thank you for the cake too, although it was only a mouthful it was really delicious, like super delicious haha. No words can really describe the taste really.
Thank you.
Then slacked with clique in canteen for awhile, me and lionel went to hg mall first, we tried bouldering on the playground for awhile, it was quite fun to really see that routes can be found nearly everywhere, literally. Then the rest slowly came and we had a chat before i went home with my dad.
My dad and i went to buy my cake at galicier first, it was a fruit cake that is quite big haha, then we went to eat dinner of steamboat with my brother downstairs. Thanks everyone for all the cards and stuff ^^.
27th May 2011: PTM2
PTM2. The day of it. The event that im the IC for, i really wanted to make it a really good job as Sharon is my exco tag, and i dun want to dissapoint her as she is an awesome senior, as well as all the teachers in charge. So yea, started out by making attendance list, action plan, as well as jobscopes and printing them out for all the area ICs. Then Sharon and me discussed some things and yea, i was confident of doing a good job.
Excused from volleyball at 4pm, then went down and changed up, then Mr Bay briefed me for awhile. At 4.20, conducted briefing for all the SLs and SLTs, then dispatched them to put their bags in SLR and then to help out putting up the signs in the hall.
Unfortunately, i did not foresee that the tags needed to be set up by us beforehand, so there was rush and confusion coming up to 5.30, and i could not stick to the plan immediately. After a very rushed period of collecting food and running up and down, we finished putting up all the signs at 5.30 exactly, then sent most of the SLTs and SLs down to get their dinner first, while stationing some SLs to get the early parents to wait first as the teachers have not gathered in the hall yet. Most SLTs, SLS finished eating at 6.00, so i officially started duty promptly, with all the SLs and SLTs set in place, at first the SLTs were feeling awkward, so yea we tried to motivate them and it was successful. Overall throughout the whole event, i was running up and down asking if there was any problems, and if i could help in anyway, and making small convos, it was really fun but tiring though. I ate my dinner at around 6.45, after things have stabilised down a little bit. Through this i have gotten closer to some people too ^^. Overall the event was a great success i think, or i hope so since Mr Chew said so in his debrief. At 9.10, we ended PTM2 duties and starting packing the tables and chairs into exam formation Near the end, me and eugene decide to have fun by playing Ghost anyway. HAHA so we lay in wait at the corridor lying down, as if dead. When the first front row came and saw us they screamed, and so we also screamed, haha very fun, like super awesome la!! Sorry if i scared anyone in the process, but we mean no harm but fun ba ^^. Officially ended at around 10pm, then Me and Sharon talked on the way back ^^.
Then met my mum at nex to eat KFC, then we went back home, thanks MUM! also for the choco cone, was very tired and fell asleep immediately..
Jesusfreak at 8:45 AM
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Revo outing again. We were going to watch fast and furious five at nex. First met Ka wee at serangoon mrt at around 7 cause we wanted to go play first, then took an mrt to buangkok station to train first. So we played and i got back a little bit of my shooting form. Haha then the rest started slowly trickling in then. But we didn't play long before a Hong Kong-ese team came. So we played some 4v4 half court matches with them. I can't remember much but it was quite fun and exciting match. Then we left at around 11.40 to go to nex. Reached Nex at around 12 and then gerald and vincent came. So we bought tickets at around 12.20 for 8 people. Then went to the arcade to play some games first. First saw aderic and the others play the arcade basketball, then me gerald and aderic went to play midnight, some racing game. It was very fun, and i got 2nd haha. Then i went to smuggle some snacks into the cinema. Entered the cinema and then started to watch the movie. Thanks Gerald for sharing pop corn with me :D. It was a thrilling movie about 3 convicts pulling off the ultimate robbery to free themselves as they get new identities with the money.
After the movie took 315 and went to Gerald's house to refresh ourselves as well as to see-see. Found out that gerald's court was also zowie's court. Exactly the same court, so i got half a shock when i got off the 315 bus.
Gerald's house was very clean neat and very nice, his mum also very nice, offered us agar agar to eat, so yea :D. Then we went down to court to play. But i only played one match with public with vincent and jesmond in which we lost 7-4. The other team played a very physical and tough game. Then we slacked for awhile and played internally for 2 matches. I left first to rest as was tired...
After the movie took 315 and went to Gerald's house to refresh ourselves as well as to see-see. Found out that gerald's court was also zowie's court. Exactly the same court, so i got half a shock when i got off the 315 bus.
Gerald's house was very clean neat and very nice, his mum also very nice, offered us agar agar to eat, so yea :D. Then we went down to court to play. But i only played one match with public with vincent and jesmond in which we lost 7-4. The other team played a very physical and tough game. Then we slacked for awhile and played internally for 2 matches. I left first to rest as was tired...
Jesusfreak at 6:34 AM
Monday, May 23, 2011
Memories from the past.
Revo Outing: 4th May 2011, Wednesday
Revo Came to my house, plus Jacky too! :D. When at the bus stop, the rest of revo went to play basketball at the half court near school while i looked out for bus. When bus 147 came i called out and they all rushed. Chatted in the bus. Then walked to my house. Reached my house at around 2.40pm. At first was planning to study. But in the end, Vincent played a trailer of Human Centipede, and it was a super gross topic and movie. Gerald kept talking about the plot too. Then the others played Tai Ti also. We slacked/studied until around 5.30, then went down to NYJC to play basketball. We played among ourselves and was very fun, Jesmond got alot of nice accurate shots ^^. Then brought the others to the 156 bus stop for them to go home. Reached home about 7. Very Fun day :D
Revo Outing: 6th May 2011, Friday
Wasn't really an outing, it was just after school, went with Revo to Hougang Point court 2, played with Some seniors, senior Aslam from Jaguar was there, we played for some time then decided to rest. Then Vincent brought out his small rim and his small cute ball. So i tried to dunk the small ball on the rim there, but i just missed by a small margin, tried alot of times but still fail. Then we tried to attach the rim to the side of the cage so we can dunk it but failed haha cause the thing couldn't stay on. Then we held it up at a height for vincent to dunk. Very fun but tiring, then went back to rest and sleep.
Sunday 8th May 2011:
The weekend before the pure papers. Met revo at senkgang court at around 3pm. Was planning to study physics. Then met alot of other Xms people like douglas and Eunise there too. Started off by playing Dai Ti first, then playing a bit of basketball with the netball rim as the other bkb courts are full. Then decided to study awhile, but it wasn't really effective, so we went to play 4 v 4 with some older people. There was one guy who could jump nearly as high as me, as well as a rockclimber, and they were very friendly. Then somehow, i ended up showing my biceps and the rockclimber vs-ed me in arm wrestling on the ground. It was a very good match although i won him.haha it is really good memories, then we played somemore before i ended up vs-ing the rockclimber's brother in arm wrestling, again, after alot of effort i won him. But it was really fun. Then went back at around 6pm to rest and study....
Friday 14th May 2011:
First i went to AC11 meeting. The most memorable part about this was to play the game called Resilience Push, which is a really emotionally heavy game aimed at telling a person not to give up on his or her dreams. FIrst saw all the others being the 'main' person first. Then it was my turn. I said that i wanted to be a 'humanitarian aid worker. The two things against me are my parents and the fact that i would have to leave my friends in sg. the two things encouraging me are the smiles on people's faces and the fact that i think that this is my life's destiny. I really pushed on hard during the solemn activity, as i really thought about fighting back against all the factors that are against me. Marshall and Ji Long were pushing me while Justin was trying to encourage me. I resisted with all my might but to no avail, but it was really uplifting for me as before that i was feeling really down as i wondered what my results would be like when i receive them back and that i will be foreed to quit SLB, as well as not be able to go AC. So yea, the game really was a waking up for me as it told me that i should continue fighting on for my dreams. I felt really better after that. But after i resisted with all my might my muscles were totally drained, throughout the rest of that day no strength. Then went back home firs to charge my phone before going to church at around 5pm. We ended church around 6.30 to go to Tampines to eat dinner with CG, we ate at a restaurant. Before eating while waiting for our food, we played a very fun game using strips of paper and passing them around. A person would first write a word, then fold it and pass to the next person, the next person would draw a picture according to the word, fold the paper and pass to the 3rd person. The 3rd person would try to describe the picture in words and fold it and pass it on etc etc. So yea in the end get alot of epic stuff :) Like how I Love balls became i love the moon and also how a chicken nugget became pacman. Yeap we really had a very good laugh over it. I ate korean noodles with beef. Tasted great :D. Then headed home earlier to rest first...
Sunday 15th May 2011:
The day before taking back of papers.
First went to play basketball with Revo at around 1pm. Met Kawee Aderic Gillian Kaw Chun at Compass point, then i headed to the library to grab some books. Then when we were at the court i started practising kicking the foam of the baksetball rim just for fun in order to practise tkd and muay thai haha.Then went to play at Senkgang CC court with the rest of Revo. We played among ourselves first. We also played full court, then very fun cause can run up and down. Then while we were resting, a strong team came. (Ernest's Team)I didn't play cause felt bloated from drinking too much 100 plus and also that my ankle was not feeling very good as there was pain when walking. Left at around 4.30pm to head to kovan to go to bugis. Met Evelyn and Qiannong at kovan first then we took mrt to bugis. Then we walked to the steamboat area and waited for the rest to arrive. Bryan, Me, Wen Zhi, Pei xuan, Qian nong were present haha. I decided to go easy today as i did nt want to spend 3 hours in the toilet as i did last time so yea, i went easy today with more variety too :) And i stopped without overloading myself too :D. Haha i find that its more fun like that, even though me and px still managed to clear a whole load of meat and other stuff :D
Went back at around 9. Fun :D
16th May 2011:
Assembly duty for this first time, feeling really nervous about how to go about doing it haha. Met justin in the foyer. Then he briefed me about what to do. Then because i scared forget pledge and student creed i took justin's jotter book for the student's creed and also wrote the pledge on a piece of paper for reading. Then went up for judgement. First i said sekola instead of skola, so yea haha. Then went through the whole thing, so i needed to slow down a little bit the next day ba, as were said by many people. Generally over the next few days things got less nervous :D
21th May 2011: Saturday, Shukun's wedding.
Went to Shukun's wedding. First met at around 1.45 outside auditorium, then took pictures too, then went in and yea. :D
Grats Shukun :D HAVE AN AWESOME TIME AHEAD :D
Revo Outing: 4th May 2011, Wednesday
Revo Came to my house, plus Jacky too! :D. When at the bus stop, the rest of revo went to play basketball at the half court near school while i looked out for bus. When bus 147 came i called out and they all rushed. Chatted in the bus. Then walked to my house. Reached my house at around 2.40pm. At first was planning to study. But in the end, Vincent played a trailer of Human Centipede, and it was a super gross topic and movie. Gerald kept talking about the plot too. Then the others played Tai Ti also. We slacked/studied until around 5.30, then went down to NYJC to play basketball. We played among ourselves and was very fun, Jesmond got alot of nice accurate shots ^^. Then brought the others to the 156 bus stop for them to go home. Reached home about 7. Very Fun day :D
Revo Outing: 6th May 2011, Friday
Wasn't really an outing, it was just after school, went with Revo to Hougang Point court 2, played with Some seniors, senior Aslam from Jaguar was there, we played for some time then decided to rest. Then Vincent brought out his small rim and his small cute ball. So i tried to dunk the small ball on the rim there, but i just missed by a small margin, tried alot of times but still fail. Then we tried to attach the rim to the side of the cage so we can dunk it but failed haha cause the thing couldn't stay on. Then we held it up at a height for vincent to dunk. Very fun but tiring, then went back to rest and sleep.
Sunday 8th May 2011:
The weekend before the pure papers. Met revo at senkgang court at around 3pm. Was planning to study physics. Then met alot of other Xms people like douglas and Eunise there too. Started off by playing Dai Ti first, then playing a bit of basketball with the netball rim as the other bkb courts are full. Then decided to study awhile, but it wasn't really effective, so we went to play 4 v 4 with some older people. There was one guy who could jump nearly as high as me, as well as a rockclimber, and they were very friendly. Then somehow, i ended up showing my biceps and the rockclimber vs-ed me in arm wrestling on the ground. It was a very good match although i won him.haha it is really good memories, then we played somemore before i ended up vs-ing the rockclimber's brother in arm wrestling, again, after alot of effort i won him. But it was really fun. Then went back at around 6pm to rest and study....
Friday 14th May 2011:
First i went to AC11 meeting. The most memorable part about this was to play the game called Resilience Push, which is a really emotionally heavy game aimed at telling a person not to give up on his or her dreams. FIrst saw all the others being the 'main' person first. Then it was my turn. I said that i wanted to be a 'humanitarian aid worker. The two things against me are my parents and the fact that i would have to leave my friends in sg. the two things encouraging me are the smiles on people's faces and the fact that i think that this is my life's destiny. I really pushed on hard during the solemn activity, as i really thought about fighting back against all the factors that are against me. Marshall and Ji Long were pushing me while Justin was trying to encourage me. I resisted with all my might but to no avail, but it was really uplifting for me as before that i was feeling really down as i wondered what my results would be like when i receive them back and that i will be foreed to quit SLB, as well as not be able to go AC. So yea, the game really was a waking up for me as it told me that i should continue fighting on for my dreams. I felt really better after that. But after i resisted with all my might my muscles were totally drained, throughout the rest of that day no strength. Then went back home firs to charge my phone before going to church at around 5pm. We ended church around 6.30 to go to Tampines to eat dinner with CG, we ate at a restaurant. Before eating while waiting for our food, we played a very fun game using strips of paper and passing them around. A person would first write a word, then fold it and pass to the next person, the next person would draw a picture according to the word, fold the paper and pass to the 3rd person. The 3rd person would try to describe the picture in words and fold it and pass it on etc etc. So yea in the end get alot of epic stuff :) Like how I Love balls became i love the moon and also how a chicken nugget became pacman. Yeap we really had a very good laugh over it. I ate korean noodles with beef. Tasted great :D. Then headed home earlier to rest first...
Sunday 15th May 2011:
The day before taking back of papers.
First went to play basketball with Revo at around 1pm. Met Kawee Aderic Gillian Kaw Chun at Compass point, then i headed to the library to grab some books. Then when we were at the court i started practising kicking the foam of the baksetball rim just for fun in order to practise tkd and muay thai haha.Then went to play at Senkgang CC court with the rest of Revo. We played among ourselves first. We also played full court, then very fun cause can run up and down. Then while we were resting, a strong team came. (Ernest's Team)I didn't play cause felt bloated from drinking too much 100 plus and also that my ankle was not feeling very good as there was pain when walking. Left at around 4.30pm to head to kovan to go to bugis. Met Evelyn and Qiannong at kovan first then we took mrt to bugis. Then we walked to the steamboat area and waited for the rest to arrive. Bryan, Me, Wen Zhi, Pei xuan, Qian nong were present haha. I decided to go easy today as i did nt want to spend 3 hours in the toilet as i did last time so yea, i went easy today with more variety too :) And i stopped without overloading myself too :D. Haha i find that its more fun like that, even though me and px still managed to clear a whole load of meat and other stuff :D
Went back at around 9. Fun :D
16th May 2011:
Assembly duty for this first time, feeling really nervous about how to go about doing it haha. Met justin in the foyer. Then he briefed me about what to do. Then because i scared forget pledge and student creed i took justin's jotter book for the student's creed and also wrote the pledge on a piece of paper for reading. Then went up for judgement. First i said sekola instead of skola, so yea haha. Then went through the whole thing, so i needed to slow down a little bit the next day ba, as were said by many people. Generally over the next few days things got less nervous :D
21th May 2011: Saturday, Shukun's wedding.
Went to Shukun's wedding. First met at around 1.45 outside auditorium, then took pictures too, then went in and yea. :D
Grats Shukun :D HAVE AN AWESOME TIME AHEAD :D
Jesusfreak at 7:59 AM
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Got back my results today, but i am in a dilemna over how to present in such a way that my father will not be unhappy with me as well as that he will not have too high expectations of me.
I have 3 choices to make:
1. Present the actual MYE results, as well as position to my father
Advantages: The 'correct' choice. Would certainly make my father happy. 100% able to go for AC.
Disadvantages: Expectations for next semester's results would skyrocket, even to the point whereby he would expect me to be in the top 5 class position, which i am sure i would not be able to attain.
2. Present the overall results, would greatly even out the results, however the even-ed out results might not account for the 50 mark attainment in math and Chinese and 68 for English.
3. Present a mix of both. So that it is balanced, as well as present a picture that sec 3 is hard, as well as ensure that my father is happy, i can go for AC. And also that my father will not have too high expectations for the next semester.
Therefore i have decided to go with option 3.
But it is a difficult choice to make.
Firstly i will start with the results which i plan to present to my father.
Physics: 83%(Overall mark) Position: one of the top
English: 68% (MYE) Position: Top 10
E Maths: 52% (Overall) Position: Half
History: 82% (MYE) Position: top 10
SS: 78% (Overall) Position: top 10
Chiense: 52% (MYE) Position: -
Geography: 70% (Overall) Position: Top few.
Chemistry:
This will present a balanced score with an average of 70. I am not considering to combine the SS and History results to present, rather i will do it seperately. This will give me 3a1, 1 a2, 2 c6, and a b3. This will actually be a cause for more scolding too, but i know i have to take the situation and analyse it welll to plan my next step.
This should do for me.
Next step: What should i tell him.
Dad. I am sorry that i cant be the best in every subject or be like chen show mao, i know that you love me and you work very hard to provide for us. Therefore, i assure you that i have done my best for this exams, and i can really say that i have done my best. I know its because you love me that you put pressure on me...
I need to gather my thoughts first...
I have 3 choices to make:
1. Present the actual MYE results, as well as position to my father
Advantages: The 'correct' choice. Would certainly make my father happy. 100% able to go for AC.
Disadvantages: Expectations for next semester's results would skyrocket, even to the point whereby he would expect me to be in the top 5 class position, which i am sure i would not be able to attain.
2. Present the overall results, would greatly even out the results, however the even-ed out results might not account for the 50 mark attainment in math and Chinese and 68 for English.
3. Present a mix of both. So that it is balanced, as well as present a picture that sec 3 is hard, as well as ensure that my father is happy, i can go for AC. And also that my father will not have too high expectations for the next semester.
Therefore i have decided to go with option 3.
But it is a difficult choice to make.
Firstly i will start with the results which i plan to present to my father.
Physics: 83%(Overall mark) Position: one of the top
English: 68% (MYE) Position: Top 10
E Maths: 52% (Overall) Position: Half
History: 82% (MYE) Position: top 10
SS: 78% (Overall) Position: top 10
Chiense: 52% (MYE) Position: -
Geography: 70% (Overall) Position: Top few.
Chemistry:
This will present a balanced score with an average of 70. I am not considering to combine the SS and History results to present, rather i will do it seperately. This will give me 3a1, 1 a2, 2 c6, and a b3. This will actually be a cause for more scolding too, but i know i have to take the situation and analyse it welll to plan my next step.
This should do for me.
Next step: What should i tell him.
Dad. I am sorry that i cant be the best in every subject or be like chen show mao, i know that you love me and you work very hard to provide for us. Therefore, i assure you that i have done my best for this exams, and i can really say that i have done my best. I know its because you love me that you put pressure on me...
I need to gather my thoughts first...
Jesusfreak at 5:21 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Dear God, please help me. I know i sound pathetic now, i come to you when i need help but i ignore you sometimes when u call for me. So i can't ask for much, but Dear God, i pray to you for tomorrow. Dear God, I dedicate the whole of tomorrow into your hands, for tomorrow is in a day of judgement in its own kind. Tomorrow, i will be receiving back my exam scripts for Physics, Maths, English, Geography and Social Studies. Dear God, I pray to you that i may get the mark that i really deserve based on my effort put in for this exam, i also pray to you that my father would be understanding with my results as the Sec 3 papers have been really tough even after hard work has been put in. I pray to you especially for my E maths paper because i know i can barely pass or would even fail for that subject, i pray to you that my father would understand that i have really tried and did my best for it, and whatever the outcome is, i hope he will not be too angry or dissapointed. Dear God, i also pray to you for my other papers, i pray to you that i did not make too many careless mistakes, and also that i can get the marks i deserve for it. Dear God, this year has been a year of great trials. Especially trying to keep volleyball and SLB, especially SLB. I knew that if i did not do well for this mid year i would have to sacrifice everything. And i would be heartbroken and devastated, I can't go 4 June Camp or even AC anymore. Dear God, camps mean alot to me as they as sources of memories, and memories are really the most valuable things to me in this life. If i had to forfeit both camps, and the intensive at the end of year, i would surely be really devastated, and i do not know if i can recover from such an emotional blow, hence i have really done my best for this exams, i know i have, but still, the heavy consequences are making me very nervous. I know that although i have done my best, due to the difficulty of the papers, i still can't get very high marks. The problem is that my father does not understand the fact that sec 3 gets harder, in fact he expects my results to improve every year, which is nearly impossible once it hits sec 3. I am really worried for tomorrow, but i know tomorrow will still come. For those memories, i have slogged hours in front of books and everything else. God, bless me for tomorrow, as i dedicate tomorrow into your hands. Dear God, Thank you for everything that you have done for me too, thank you for delivering me out of my grave when i was sec 2. Dear God, I am once again going to make another commitment to you with this June Holidays, also in the form of another video, so that i may be held accountable to my actions. Dear God, i believe that this is the only way that i can really try to repay your mercy and grace. May all glory and honour be to you, God, as i continue to walk in this Earth trying to declare your name.
Amen.
Amen.
Jesusfreak at 3:01 AM
Sunday, May 8, 2011
i have had so many things on my mind recently, that i would just want to say it all out.
To Dad: I am so sorry, please do not be too disappointed with my results, but you also must know that it is sec 3, and i have did my best this year i assure you.
I am just so worried for my MYE results now. Because if i do not get good results, thats the end of any chance for me going to AC or June camp. Then what am i in SLB for. I have not even been a good SL at all... And I might not even be an SL already. My Father may force me to go to less trainings for volleyball by talking to my teacher in charge, and my teacher in charge will complicate things by saying i also have my SL commitments. Based on the school. Academics>CCA>SLB. So i am in a tight spot.
I would have liked to prefer that i would get good results. But it seems highly unlikely with the difficulty of the papers. What i am hoping for now is just a 65% overall and probably a good class position, preferably top 15, so i can tell my Father that i really did work hard. Although my father has also seen that i am already doing my best and tries to encourage me by saying to do my best. But im the end when the results come back. its sure to be a gone case. Last year i got 70% overall he's already very unhappy. Man...
But i must be strong, i must have that glimmer of hope. In God, right now i am placing everything in God's hands already. I want to keep everything up, and something is telling me that by trusting in God everything will be fine. I hope so. I really hope so. I am very afraid of this. I dont want to lose my position as an SL, and i also dont want to dissapoint Liya, or any of senior or other SLs. I must make an impact as an SL. I can't be like this anymore. I got to keep my discipline in check.
To SLB: Thank you so much. You have been my source of motivation ever since i entered to study for my exams. So many times when i wanted to close the textbook you called me back, and presented me with the memories. And the songs keep playing on repeat. Those, are enough to keep me back on track. So here i am, i have not worked so hard in my life for academics before. I have become more disciplined in my studying.
But is it going to pay off? will my father still rebuke me for my results and prevent me from going to June camp and AC, which will really lead to a total devastation of my life. Haiz. Why must i have a father like that. but to question myself of that is already wrong. Because if i am to trust in God, i must also count my blessings. Around the world, many orphans do exist. And they yearn for parents. But here i am with a very caring one, albeit in an-overly-dependent-on-academics attitude.
To God: I Thank you for being there with me all the while since sec 2. I am so sorry, i was not able to live up to the contents of what i said in my testimony. I have failed u. I have failed... I have said vulgarities. Cursed. Swore. Refuted. Rejected. Mocked. Lied. Cheated. BUT I CRY OUT TO YOU NOW! PLEASE BRING ME BACK TO YOU! I do not want to once again walk down the path that screwed up half of my life already. I do not want it... Please, take me back into your comfortable embrace where i can truly make a positive impact on the people around me. i cry out to you... selah. take me back please...
To Mum: It was mother's day. But what did i do? Ignored her cause she didnt seem to happy with me going to the WP election results area. In the end i didnt go. So many time i have got angry with you. Even though sometimes its unreasonable, you still love me, even though sometimes you say you dont. Deep inside, i know you are still an amazing mother. I am a coward. I do not have the courage to say it to you. But i can only type out my feelings for you here. Mum, I am so sorry for everything i have done to you and made you angry. Apologies are nt enough. Actions count to. I will make a promise to be filial to you for the rest of my life. I just want to say, although i have never told you before, I love you mum!
I thank all my good friends for supporting me through any phase of my life. Thank you.
To Dad: I am so sorry, please do not be too disappointed with my results, but you also must know that it is sec 3, and i have did my best this year i assure you.
I am just so worried for my MYE results now. Because if i do not get good results, thats the end of any chance for me going to AC or June camp. Then what am i in SLB for. I have not even been a good SL at all... And I might not even be an SL already. My Father may force me to go to less trainings for volleyball by talking to my teacher in charge, and my teacher in charge will complicate things by saying i also have my SL commitments. Based on the school. Academics>CCA>SLB. So i am in a tight spot.
I would have liked to prefer that i would get good results. But it seems highly unlikely with the difficulty of the papers. What i am hoping for now is just a 65% overall and probably a good class position, preferably top 15, so i can tell my Father that i really did work hard. Although my father has also seen that i am already doing my best and tries to encourage me by saying to do my best. But im the end when the results come back. its sure to be a gone case. Last year i got 70% overall he's already very unhappy. Man...
But i must be strong, i must have that glimmer of hope. In God, right now i am placing everything in God's hands already. I want to keep everything up, and something is telling me that by trusting in God everything will be fine. I hope so. I really hope so. I am very afraid of this. I dont want to lose my position as an SL, and i also dont want to dissapoint Liya, or any of senior or other SLs. I must make an impact as an SL. I can't be like this anymore. I got to keep my discipline in check.
To SLB: Thank you so much. You have been my source of motivation ever since i entered to study for my exams. So many times when i wanted to close the textbook you called me back, and presented me with the memories. And the songs keep playing on repeat. Those, are enough to keep me back on track. So here i am, i have not worked so hard in my life for academics before. I have become more disciplined in my studying.
But is it going to pay off? will my father still rebuke me for my results and prevent me from going to June camp and AC, which will really lead to a total devastation of my life. Haiz. Why must i have a father like that. but to question myself of that is already wrong. Because if i am to trust in God, i must also count my blessings. Around the world, many orphans do exist. And they yearn for parents. But here i am with a very caring one, albeit in an-overly-dependent-on-academics attitude.
To God: I Thank you for being there with me all the while since sec 2. I am so sorry, i was not able to live up to the contents of what i said in my testimony. I have failed u. I have failed... I have said vulgarities. Cursed. Swore. Refuted. Rejected. Mocked. Lied. Cheated. BUT I CRY OUT TO YOU NOW! PLEASE BRING ME BACK TO YOU! I do not want to once again walk down the path that screwed up half of my life already. I do not want it... Please, take me back into your comfortable embrace where i can truly make a positive impact on the people around me. i cry out to you... selah. take me back please...
To Mum: It was mother's day. But what did i do? Ignored her cause she didnt seem to happy with me going to the WP election results area. In the end i didnt go. So many time i have got angry with you. Even though sometimes its unreasonable, you still love me, even though sometimes you say you dont. Deep inside, i know you are still an amazing mother. I am a coward. I do not have the courage to say it to you. But i can only type out my feelings for you here. Mum, I am so sorry for everything i have done to you and made you angry. Apologies are nt enough. Actions count to. I will make a promise to be filial to you for the rest of my life. I just want to say, although i have never told you before, I love you mum!
I thank all my good friends for supporting me through any phase of my life. Thank you.
Jesusfreak at 9:15 AM