Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Dear God, please help me. I know i sound pathetic now, i come to you when i need help but i ignore you sometimes when u call for me. So i can't ask for much, but Dear God, i pray to you for tomorrow. Dear God, I dedicate the whole of tomorrow into your hands, for tomorrow is in a day of judgement in its own kind. Tomorrow, i will be receiving back my exam scripts for Physics, Maths, English, Geography and Social Studies. Dear God, I pray to you that i may get the mark that i really deserve based on my effort put in for this exam, i also pray to you that my father would be understanding with my results as the Sec 3 papers have been really tough even after hard work has been put in. I pray to you especially for my E maths paper because i know i can barely pass or would even fail for that subject, i pray to you that my father would understand that i have really tried and did my best for it, and whatever the outcome is, i hope he will not be too angry or dissapointed. Dear God, i also pray to you for my other papers, i pray to you that i did not make too many careless mistakes, and also that i can get the marks i deserve for it. Dear God, this year has been a year of great trials. Especially trying to keep volleyball and SLB, especially SLB. I knew that if i did not do well for this mid year i would have to sacrifice everything. And i would be heartbroken and devastated, I can't go 4 June Camp or even AC anymore. Dear God, camps mean alot to me as they as sources of memories, and memories are really the most valuable things to me in this life. If i had to forfeit both camps, and the intensive at the end of year, i would surely be really devastated, and i do not know if i can recover from such an emotional blow, hence i have really done my best for this exams, i know i have, but still, the heavy consequences are making me very nervous. I know that although i have done my best, due to the difficulty of the papers, i still can't get very high marks. The problem is that my father does not understand the fact that sec 3 gets harder, in fact he expects my results to improve every year, which is nearly impossible once it hits sec 3. I am really worried for tomorrow, but i know tomorrow will still come. For those memories, i have slogged hours in front of books and everything else. God, bless me for tomorrow, as i dedicate tomorrow into your hands. Dear God, Thank you for everything that you have done for me too, thank you for delivering me out of my grave when i was sec 2. Dear God, I am once again going to make another commitment to you with this June Holidays, also in the form of another video, so that i may be held accountable to my actions. Dear God, i believe that this is the only way that i can really try to repay your mercy and grace. May all glory and honour be to you, God, as i continue to walk in this Earth trying to declare your name.

Amen.