Saturday, August 13, 2011

And i feel myself losing control.
Control over my time, my thoughts, my emotions, my actions.
I am doing what i never said i will be doing. Shouting back at my parents, wasting time procrastinating. How am I supposed to live up to everything i promised?

Sometimes i think its a test and its a trial, that helps me to control myself better. Maybe it really is, and i can strengthen my self-control through this.

Logic > Emotions. At least that's what i tell myself.

Sometimes it doesn't really work out though. And sometimes my experiences in life work against me.
Life has taught me that if you fight for something hard enough, you will eventually get it.
However, what if it is impossible to fight back against? What if its like coming up against a brick wall? I only end up hurting myself further with indignation.

But I comfort myself with the hopes of a better future. I pen down all those missed opportunities, to be completed in the future, the time for this experience may not be right now, but it may be in the future, and that is what pushes me on.

I know i should be content with everything that i have. But why is my emotions taking over my logic into actions?

I pray to God to help me...